dont leave...

saturday :(

not a good day.
they started arguing..... as usual.
but it was taken to the maximum and they snapped.

said shit that shuldnve been said, found out things tha shuldntve been found out and thought thigs tha shuldntve been thought.

then he gets up lifts his shoe ready to hit.
i scream.
he stops.
he puts his shoe back on runs to his bedroom gets a suitcase chucks his shit in it and says fuck yous im leaving.

i scream , im scared, i feel abandoned?
i jump on him , pul him down , beggigng screaming pleeding .
"dont go" "pleaaaasee" pleaaaseee" "nooo daddy dontt"/
he pushes me off him? i grab his leg and am histerical.
"dont leave please i love you please"
he breaks.

he cant bleve what his done.
he picks me up says heloves me and craddles me?
he says he wont leave,
but thats for now.
whats going to happen next time.
and trust me there'll be a next time , and i doubt its going to be pretty.