this is exactly why .......

they just dont get it.
i know im never at school.
my parents are so disapointed in me itsjst not funny. but its cause they dont understand.
nobody does.

i go there an all i get is shit about the way i am.
nobody understands how i feel , how could they ?
would you want to be going to aplace wereall you get is crap about yours body and personality ? and hear shit about ther people and have rumors be spread? and not want to be who you are because they make you feel so asahmed

everysingle day. everysingle god dam day i cop it.
"hey skinnyyyy!"
"oh sarah maybe if you turn to the side u'll disappear"
"oh look sarah a stick, its you? "

i hate it,. you know before came to this stupid school i was happy with my body, and who i was . i didnt think there was anything wrong with me or that i was wierd but these people, these stupid self centered arrogant assholes have made me see what they see. a scared little ugly ano brace facced bitch that never shutsup talks far to much and far to fast and is wierd. thats how they make me feel. and thats why i choose to stay home then getup and have to face that stupid shit.

they tease my cuture and my voice. im proud of my culture and im so sick of hearing terrorist jokes. im lebanese and italian. so what i like it. its who i am and who ill always be. they think arab and they think terrorist just cause muslim ? are theys seriouly that stupid? for starters those terroorists were balinese and iraqi and afgani and shit not leb. they think all arabs are muslim? its pathetic lebanon is christian and muslim and all sorts ofreligions. but you know they only hear the part about me being leb. they never hear the im italian to. to them i a hlf lebanese and half italian and because we own a lebo restarant they think im more leb then italian. im not half lebanese and half italian i am full lebanese and full italian and full aussie.

they also say shit about me being stupid? just case sometimes i say the wrong thing or because i dont know answers to everything. that doesnt make me stuppid. i know im smart and i laugh because theyhonestly cant see it . just cause i dont do my work because i cbf dusnt make me stupid . and they dont get my humour, im quiet a scarcastic joke cracking kinda chick and they just dont get it. they take everything so literally.

when they tease and shit they say there joking , like they dont mean it. but they dont get it afterawhile its not a joke any more a jok can only go on for so long.. but how is that funny? i thought jokes were mean to make ppl piss , not cry and become depressed and self concious.
you know no one in my famil have seen my body since i was in year 7. even when we went to bali and were at the beach i coverd up cause i was even embaressd to have my family see the disgust that the servite pricks do.

i have the ones i love. there all ineed. the ones that mean most , they know who they are. althought sometimes i doubt my bestfriend because of her pshyco mood swings but i love her to death.

these people should feel ashamed for the shit they put kids through. they dont ge how much it really hurts and everyone always thinks theresnothing wrong just because i go to school with a smile on my face. its hard to fake a smile everysingle day but id rather do that then have people ask whats wrong. the other day i almost cracked in my english class. but i held back. it was like 2 seconds before i was smiling then bam i cracked started getting pissy and crying. but they didnt get it. the smile its FAKE. not real its a wall. hide my feeings from the ones who made them.

theres just so much more shit going on but honestly i cbf going on and on about it cause its just making me more and more depressed although it did feel good to let it out.

thankss.